Starting over, already feel defeated

Hey LoseIt,

In 2016 I got down to my goal weight of 135lbs at 5’8” in the following years my weight fluctuated a bit but settled somewhere around 145-150. I felt great.

But then came the double whammy of the pandemic and a bout of major depression. I’m on Zoloft now and feeling better, but between meds, less activity, and comfort eating my weight has gone up to 178lbs.

I’ve tried a couple of times to get my weight under control in the past 18 months. In theory I know what to do as I did it before but I don’t seem to have the willpower I used to. And when I don’t see results I just give up.

But I need to take action. I feel so uncomfortable in my body at the moment, and despite having already basically bought a whole new wardrobe, I’m starting to find these clothes too tight.

But it just feels SO hard. I look at my 1,200 calorie allowance in MFP and want to cry. I don’t have a lot of external support — a lot of my friends are fat activists and HAES folks and I love that and them, but me choosing to diet would not be ok with them. Food has been one of the few joys through lockdown and the pandemic (I know, but it’s true). So, it’s hard not to feel defeated before I even begin.

I guess I’m just looking for a little encouragement and to send this out into the world a little. This can be done, right?

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